i'm tired of being fat but i'm tired of trying to do what it takes to not be fat anymore!! i love to workout, it's just hard to eat well. i swear Kevin's conspiracy is at play again…..he brings home bad food to make me fat so no one else will want me(he and i joke about that all the time). the past couple weeks i haven't been eating too well. last night was the last hurrah of brownies, beer, and candy. today i have begun again the weightloss program i started in August. i am drinking protien shakes for 2 days then live off of bars and shakes for 2 weeks with one real food meal. after that i get to eat normal food again. i started the shake thing today…man does it suck! hopefully this time around will be even more sucessful. it was harder last time cuz i was still nursing Vahn so i had to tweek it a wee bit. i lost lots of inches so fingers crossed this time i will loose more and stick to eating better longer with shorter periods of bad eating……here we go again….weeeee