the cycle of shame and guilt. people make u feel shamed about who you are, then your behavior and choices make u feel guilty about what you do so then u feel shame about who u are and so the cycle perpetuates. that's a tough reality to face. i'd have to say my biggest shame/guilt cycle is being fat. i was always told when i was younger how i needed to get more exercise, not eat this or that, i was fat so then the eating becomes guilt. i was even borderline eating disorder in high school. so how do i break this cycle???? i think i have begun, loving my body tho i have some extra lovin' on me. for having 3 kids in 2 1/2 years, i think i look pretty good! weightloss is such a struggle for me. i love to work out, the problem is food. Kevin doesn't help much cuz he always brings bad stuff home and i'm home all day with it calling my name. i just told Kevin we need to make a new rule. only one treat a week. let's see if he sticks with it…..if it's not in the house i won't eat it. i'm starting at the beginning of the weightloss program i was using a few months ago…..here goes another try………
i'm gonna ponder the cycle today and see if it shows up in any other belief systems i have……………