ok, so it just hit me i'm at a crucial crossroads of loosing myself. i almost feel like it's a mid life crisis or something. i am beginning to get lost in being a wife and mommy. i thought it was just an image thing. i have started the Trim Body System to loose my fat, i'm whitening my teeth, and making sure i have some down time to read or chill out. i think my efforts are keeping my above water for the time being. hopefully in the next few months i'll be able to do more, maybe a class at the Rec Center or something to help me swim not just tread water. having these three, i love em tons, but, man is it tough!!!! i'm trying really hard to curb my temper tho sometimes i do raise my voice to almost yelling at them. i don't get much time between 8am and 8 pm to sit down and relax. today for instance the longest i got to sit outside of breastfeeding was 10 minutes! i am soo exhausted then when Kevin comes home he wants my attentiion too! i was watching a show on husbands and the new baby. they hit right on the head. by the time u get to your husband, all your body feels is another pair of hands wanting to crawl all over u! i do feel bad for Kevin tho he is being a trooper. i'm sure he's having a tough time with it. for that reason our marriage is blah right now. not bad at all just not great……my mantra…..it's only temporary…..gotta go and fold the laundry now……no rest for the weary:)