i braved church today with all 3 of them for the first time. this is the first time i've taken all 3 out by myself. it went sooo much better than i thought it was going to go. God knew i needed to go so He made it easy for me:) i'm really glad i got to be there. i feel refreshed and i was overwhelmed with emotions cuz there is soo much on my heart. i realized God has been speaking to me thru Kevin. the one thing i know i my heart knows i need to do, i have'nt…selfishness i suppose. Kevin has wanted us to start giving and he has been writing checks for us. i haven't been to excited about it but wanting to support him. i guess the act was the first step now i'm beginning to be change my attitude towards it….slowly it will become a joy to do as part of my worship. God has been putting different people on my heart lately. then of course, when i think about God's only Son dying…..i try to put myself in that place thinking of my boys….i'm tearing up even now…..it's incredible!! God is sooo good! if He wasn't a part of my life, i'd be sooo lost, lonely, and without peace. the only thing that gets me through the day. on my way home i was also thinking about all the women who say their 30's r better than their 20's, 40's are better than thier 30's, and 50's are the best. life is going to be awesome is that's the case! my 20's had their ups and downs, but for the most part i've enjoyed them. i've really been able to discover who i am and be confident in that, i have a wonderful hubby, 3 miracle kiddos, and i get to stay home with them. can't wait for the rest of life!