WOWZERS! i feel like i was running getting our 5 year plan together and suddenly i look up and WHAM! i hit the wall and bounce back falling down on my butt. i was doing my biblestudy and this line just jumped off the page and slapped me across the face leaving me praising God for His incredible awesomeness. “When our longing for our wants in life seem to overwhelm us, we can keep in mind that all this stuff passes away.” i have been in search of a job, a full time job. the past few days i have really been dwelling on this, praying asking for direction, and being very honest with myself. i don't have a peace about working 40+ hours a week and missing out on my kids. we were hoping to have a nice chunk of change saved in the bank to make the house buying process easier in a few years….weeelllll……as the passage says “all this stuff (money) passes away”. i have been overwhelmed lately in trying to get a job, being pressured by Kevin to keep calling after interviews, putting my resume out, wondering what is going to happen to the well oiled home i've created. i feel like a huge burden has been lifted. God will provide whatever we need and even more than we can ask or think!! how amazing is that?? since becoming pregnant with Chandlur, i have realized my purpose in life (outside of praising God). it's summed up in the mission statement i have created for being a mommy, “to raise them to become contributing members of society who are men and women after God's own heart”. the money in only temporary, however my impact on future generations is guaranteed. i have vowed to myself to break the cycles of past generations. i won't be able to be as effective if i have a full time job. having a house isn't my purpose, having a chunk of change in savings isn't my purpose, my purpose is to raise joyful, healthy adults. even typing this, i'm still in awe!!! quite the change from my day yesterday