i filled out a questionare at my dr's on friday. she said i scored pretty high for postpartum depression and gave me info to get some help. it really explains lots about how i've been feeling. i just never allowed myself to go there….denial, taking care of everyone else….who knows. it's good to know why i've been the way i have and now i'm actually letting myself feel it all…..this really sux! i am constantly tense and edgey even after my bath and relaxing. my temper is getting shorter and shorter each day. i had a migraine last week which has settled into a constant headache that won't go away. it's been tough with our marriage too. it's been more of a roomate relationship. i feel really bad cuz i'm trying yet i feel like i'm failing horribly. i know i need help cuz i can really see it getting bad. i left a message for someone to return my call so i will prolly have an appointment hopefully in the next few weeks. on top of this all i've been working hard on getting back in shape…..damn that box of brownies in the cupboard sound sooo good, not just one but the whole thing:) i am having to force myself not to medicate with food…..this is TUF!!