What a night last night!!! it all started with an argument between Kevin and i. we were brough up sooo differently when it comes to ailments and pains. he was coddled, i was told to basically suck it up. it started with me not giving enough sympathy over the phone when he said what he had. i was feeling like crap and about to puke all day. plus Vahn was sooo fussy. nothing i did made him happy. by the afternoon, i wasn't in the best of moods. ooo and i was sending out my resume so i had a headache from all the computer time. then it took me awhile to get to bed. i had another flashback. it is the wierdest thing! i had all the feelings physical and this time mental from when i was a teenager. the last time it was only the physical feeling of anxiety. after awhile it occured to me it was a flashback and i realized the trigger…….not feeling good enough. after that i calmed down and eventually fell asleep(about 12:30). about 1/2 hour later, Chandlur woke up after a bad dream. he was in and out of conscienceness til around 7. he wouldn't let me leave his bed tho until about 6:30. needless to say, i didn't get much sleep. great for being sick let me tell u!!
today i got a call back from one of the positions i emailed my resume for. i have a meeting with the recruiter on thursday. it is for a company whose founder also started FCNB(previous employer). they are growing quickly. i'm hoping maybe i will be qualified not just for the customer service but also for a supervisor position. Kevin and i started talking about maybe me working and Kevin staying home. it depends on the growth possiblity and income level. the entry level is $12-13 an hour. we shall see! i am conflicted. i want the best of both worlds. i wanna stay home with the kids but i also wanna have a job. working at home just isn't the same. we shall see!!!