in my therapy session today we figured out its what Greg represents not him really. something i keep getting pulled back into. i've had 2 dreams this week of trying to escape something dark and chaotic and being pulled back in. so right now that is the question, what does he represent. i feel like inside there is something really ugly or that poison i keep feeling. since i have done work with my Chakras, i have felt a disconnect and can't explain it or where exactly it is in the meridian. Glenda said with abuse that is pretty common. its hard too cuz of my childhood i just have flashes and pictures but don't remember too much. the body's defense mechanism. its scary! i feel like i'm about to literally puke it all out. i feel like i'm on the verge of an incredible breakthru. also she thinks i have some sort of rebellious voice inside that i'm squelching. i think she is soooo right. and i might be subconsciensly eating because i'm worried that if i get toned, she will come out with force and get me in trouble. so i need to find adventuresome things to do now to give her that voice. the session today was kinda tough but incredible! i feel like i'm on the precipice of something huge.