lately it's been tough for me!! i have been having some huge, heavy epiphany moments the past couple weeks. it seems like each day i journal something heavy just jumps out. i have been growing and dealing with some really deep issues i have. i have been pretty mentally exhausted dealing with it all. i know that once i get past this my life will be sooo incredibly free. i'm in one of those valleys but i am walking thru and will be fully in the light soon. i just have to process these deep feelings and issues. i am also in the process of changing medications so i'm kinda a little more down than usual. i'm hoping this new medication will help bring me back up. i know once i've processed all my crap, i will be in a much better place and possibly able to get off of medz all together. i have been pulling away from people the past few days or so. i just can't deal. i can barely deal with this i have. i am making huge changes and revolutionizing my life so i know it will take some time and i just need to be patient with myself. thankfully i have Kevin who has been sooo wonderfully supportive and understanding. i know God chose this moment for my healing because of all the support i have from others and myself.