As I am sitting here, I have tears streaming down my face in joy and thankfulness.  I have just finished my coursework on PPD and PTSD.  Because of my personal experience with these after we had Vahn, it was draining.  I was diagnosed with severe PPD and PTSD from some childhood trauma that was never healed.  Thankfully I had an amazing therapist and support at home.  My heart is healed, however, reviewing the information in a clinical sense brings up those disparing emotions.  I almost feel like I need a nap.  I went to the next section in attempts to put it behind me and move on.  I am struggling!  All of a sudden I hear my son start singing to the baby “I love my Lord Jesus a deep down in my heart, a deep down in my heart” over and over.  I turn around and see the baby smiling at him.  I can move on in perfect peace.